When I started this blog I thought that I was going to write once every week. Well it has been months and this is my third post. I want to be angry at myself, I want to pretend that I was just being lazy. That would be easier to accept, but I have to be honest. My mental health has not been the best. I have to accept that I suffer from anxiety and depression. I have to be honest with myself because if I don't then I can't get help. I have to be able to say there is a problem so that I can accept help.
These past months I have had to be extremely patient with myself. As my plans for this and other projects fall apart I have to keep saying my plans did not work out. I kept feeling like I was walking backwards. But you know what that is perfectly fine. The plan did not work out, but that does not mean I failed. I only failed if I let the negativity take over.
You can't let the negativity fill everything. You have to forgive yourself, you have to be patient with yourself, and you have to move forward.
I am moving forward; I have a new plan. My new plan is to post every two weeks. Hopefully I will be able to post every week soon, but I will not push myself. I have set up a system to keep me accountable, but I will not feel guilty if I have to take things slowly.
And so my fellow travelers on this path called life be kind yourself. Sometimes to see the picture you need to take a few steps back.
Ps. this is a picture of me at the beach a few years ago. I love the beach, whenever I feel sad I just go back.
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